ThreeFlatsToTheLeft

Today will get better, right? Wrong. I can't do it. Correct. I have to keep on going. Why do you try? This can only get better. I don't think so.

I'm invisible. They can't see me. I just sit there quietly, and go unoticed. It's like they see right through me. I need no emotional sheild, it wouldn't help anyway. Their words are like knives, but they think they cut into air. My voice is nothing but a breeze. My touch is the wind. I try to speak up, yet nothing comes out. I'm invisible.

"Ugly girl. Look at her" I can hear you. "I bet she buys her clothes XXX-Large...then STRETCHES them" Why do you do this? "Wow....Where does she sleep? I know, at the MATTRESS STORE. They put all them together!" Stop it. "Is that what clogged my drain this morning? No..wait....that's her hair!" Why me? "Compared to her, my DEAD GREAT GRANDMOTHER looks like a model!" You know I can't speak up. "How does she even breathe? The weight she packs should have crushed her!!" Cut it out. "I thought ogres didn't exist! Apparently they do!" Please, no more. "I bet she was captured by natives, and they ate her tongue. That why she can't speak!" Stop it.

The beat pounds through my head. I tap my pencil to the music. You smile at me, and I smile back. Discreetly, I slide a white earbud to you. You slip it in. I snicker as your face reddens. You hum lightly. I scribble on a slip of paper, and slide it to you. Your face lights up as you read it. I giggle softly.......                                                                                                  "Our song?"                                                                                            "Without a doubt..."

You see me. Sitting there, Oblivious. Looking like I don't give a shit. But I see you. I want to talk, But I'm too shy. Please come over here, Because I won't go there. I sigh, Because you walk away. But when you turn around, you give me a smile. It shines like the sun. My dark world, Is now a little lighter.

Why? Why did you leave? I told you to wait, Why did you leave? I could bear life with you, Now I'm worse than dead. Why did you leave? I thought you promised, You would always be here? .....please come back